One of the “features” of being Aspergic is one tends to systemise things. One of the ways this manifests with me and World of Tanks is I record, on a spreadsheet, my daily record, both the overall record and what it is in each tank I play that particular day. This means I can look back and discover when my current losing streak began, and today I realised it is a month old. On 19th March I had a good day, a 10-3 record which had been preceded by a full week of winning daily records, in the month until that point there had only been three days played which did not have a winning record. On the 20th March however it appears things started to change, and days in which I had losing or drawn records became much more common. However, looking at the information more closely over this lengthy period and a slightly different picture emerges. Look at the below totals (to US readers, beware the different date format) – warning much navel-gazing ahead 😀 :
This is the first period of the losing streak, and I very much have a losing record in this period – by this point in time I was 15-26-1, and given this occurred over about a week it is not really a surprise that it has stuck in my memory.
Things then turned around in the next week – in this week I had a 42-17-1 record, which is very healthy which ever way you look at it. Immediately thereafter, however, I have a hiatus (for good reasons), but in as much as that affected my gaming it clearly broke a good patch.
In the next week we have a struggle. My record is 35-36, almost a draw. I recall this week feeling very much like a grind, and it clearly was.
This is the 2nd Anniversary weekend, and subsequently, over which period I have a 32-41 record. A massive losing record, mostly concentrated in that first day of the special.
However, what is my record for the overall period? Well, Overall: 124-120-2, or a very slight winning record – but it has felt like I have been losing constantly for about a month.
How to reconcile this? Well in reality this is not very difficult, apart from the second portion of the period concerned I have had three weeks of losing records, which adds up. Moreover even though I do come in just about 50% for the entire period, I am used to winning 5-6% more than that – it seems a small difference but over several games it gets magnified. Finally in certain tanks I have had some quite long losing streaks, and once again that has magnified the effect of this difficult patch.
What to do about it? Well, that is very hard to say indeed. Part of the solution has to be to stop worrying about it – which I sometimes find difficult to do given how aware of the stats I often am. Beyond that is not to try to force something that is not there. In regular play my great weakness is still recklessness, and when I become a little impatient with how things are going I do try to do more. Also, in all honesty, I probably had a run of success prior to now that went on a bit too long – something that likely caused be to be more reckless in any case.
I get the feeling that if this is an episode I could learn a lot from, to hopefully improve myself as a player. On the other hand I feel it could also sour the game a little for me. Hopefully not.
Update: Tonight I went 9-7.